the third time i felt this way...

The third time I felt this way...

My heart sank upon finding out what u have done. It hurts me badly, and the pain lingers. It felt like when I woke up that morning, finding Grandma who was sleeping beside me passed away and the time when I broke off with my bf in secondary 4. Why and when did u become like that? I really wish to know. Don't u realise that there are people who truly care and love u? Have I not been praying enough? Perhaps...
I am really at a loss now. Not in the mood to "pia" for my paper on monday anymore.

And if you are reading, I suppose you know what I'm talking about. Can you don't add on to my disappointment and pain as well? I know He wants you back.